As I was sitting here thinking about what I should share today I really sat and thought about how if it's possible to have lasting effects from experiencing a pandemic. As a huge self reflector I have thought back on where I was pre-pandemic and how I was during the beginning of the pandemic and how I'm doing now that we are over a year into a pandemic. There's so many things that I feel I could justifiably blame on the pandemic but for some reason I've been careful not to get too comfortable doing that. Now I won't invalidate that there's a strong possibility that the way this pandemic has effected me has had a great impact on certain factors in my life. I am now at the place where I am really working hard to take control of the impact that this pandemic has had on my life and get back to who and where I was pre-pandemic.
One of the things that I've been focusing on getting back into the habit of is affirming and really spending a lot of quality time with myself. I started an affirmation journal in college and overtime I have written some very powerful affirmations in my alone time. Some that I have seen come to pass and others that I'm still believing strongly to see. I noticed that when I tend to speak out of the way I feel instead of speaking how I would like to feel in spite of how I'm really feeling. Even with knowledge of words being powerful sometimes it can be hard when reality is so blatant. I'm being reminded that it may be a fight to get back to where I was but I have the authority on the outcome of the journey leading back. I don't have to live dreadfully through or accept the uncertainty, the stumbling blocks, the stress, and everything in between. Choices have to be made and it's up to me to make choices that bring out the best in me not the mess in me.
I realized that I have been slacking on spending quality time with myself and really taking care of myself. I will attempt in a manner but I don't do a very good job at it consistently. That's something I'm strongly challenging myself to change and do for the remainder of this year. Finding a routine and just things to make me feel at peace and feel good while taking care of all other responsibilities. I was on that journey but now it's time to get back at it!
Today I want to challenge you to create a list of things that you want to do or experience in your quality time with yourself and I challenge you to begin to do those things whether they are big or small. Don't let life hand you, it can be tough but our choices and how we handle every phase of our life matters.
My prayer today is that we simply get back to our BEST self. I pray that we find a flow that is conducive, helpful, and healthy to and for our physical, spiritual, and mental health. I pray that we get back to overall happiness and throw away circumstantial happiness.
-Yours Truly, Eb