Hi friends! Happy Saturday and Happy September! As August was an interesting eventful month for me I find myself reflecting on where I've been mentally and spiritually lately. As one who tends to put a lot of pressure on myself, I can be a bit critical of where I'm going and how I'm going through the process such as how it looks, feels, and everything else. When I sought prayer from trusted individuals I was presented with a series of questions reflecting the who?, what?, when?, where?, and how?, about where I'm at. I found myself responding with "I don't know" many times because at the moment that seemed to be my truth.
This summer I've been learning a lot about the true character of God. Some days I understand and some days I don't and it can be challenging when we're imperfect people. It can be even more challenging when you're an imperfect person who desires to fully please God in all areas. It can make those tough dry seasons with God harder than what they truly have to be. I honestly have found it to be discouraging because it seems as if there's no consistency, however that's not really always the case. I've learned that even in warfare God will teach and still is teaching you throughout it all. How He teaches us is left up to our availability for Him to do so.
We can say boldly that we know God loves us, is merciful, gracious, and every other good thing we have been told that God is or even believe that God is but if we don't apply it to our lives daily do we truly believe what we're saying? Is the word of God working on our behalf in our warfare if we don't know what to do with it? It's like having a weapon but not knowing how to use it? How do we protect ourselves? How do we fight? This alone has encouraged me to really learn who God is on a deeper level of understanding. I've been encouraged to create a list of what I find and to truly meditate on those things. It's not always easy going deeper in anything, there's always push backs and set backs waiting it seems. However knowing that we can overcome is where we can rest.
My prayer today is that we get to know the God we serve. I pray that just like anything else we will prioritize time to go and grow deeper. That we pull ourselves up out of the cycle of being stuck and inconsistent. I pray that we will know the TRUE love of God.
-Yours Truly, Eb