Purge Me O God

Happy Saturday to the people! I want to acknowledge how much this platform means to me. When I first stated this blog 6 years ago I truly desired for it to be a place where I just freely shared my thoughts and experiences with the hope that when people read the post they would experience the love of God and get to know the character of who God is through my post. My consistency in sharing was my promise to God to steward this blog and my gift of writing. Of course over the past 6 years of maintaining this blog I’ve had many seasons where I may not have posted consistently and one of the main reasons is because I also am not going to write a post just to write one. I always want to share something of substance with authenticity being part of the why. Either way I’m grateful to be able to maintain this platform through my writing and through God’s heart from what He gives me to share.

You’re probably wondering why I even started off my post stating all of that. It mainly was to remind myself of stewardship and to not forget the enjoyable things and the creative aspects about me that often gets put on a shelf at times. I’ve been expressing to a couple people in my community about my experience with transition. How as I reflect on my 20s the past decade has been filled with major transitions. I shared how I don’t know that I have ever settled in a period of transition and just soaked up the moment and was present in it. I’ve always been trying to find balance. As I have one more (planned) transition to experience this year before 2026 comes, I noted that I really want my 30s to be the decade where I do everything God has called me to do and also to slow down a lot. I yearn for slow starts and endings to my week. I yearn for intentional rest. These things I’m learning how to better implement them into my life.

With all of that being said, I woke up this morning with a desire to be purged. The definition of the word purge means to rid (someone or something) of an unwanted quality, condition, or feeling. This word is classified as a verb which means of course to put action behind a thing. For me I believe that this next transition in my life will be vital to the next chapter of my life. I feel as though it’s been tough for me to find balance because I’m trying to balance new things with the things that needs to be purged from my life. This is some revelation that just came to me. I mean when you think of transitions of course there’s a purging that comes before the new. You have to get rid of some things to make space for the new thing. This has not be easy but it’s been rewarding as I’m very adamant about creating a life that I can enjoy and look back on it a thoroughly be pleased with the life I’ve experienced.

My prayer today is for myself. God I ask that you purge out of me everything that is not like you. Purge anything that is holding me back from fully experiencing the goodness of You. I pray that you will highlight to me areas in my life and things in my life that I need to release and let go so that You can continue to make room for me to receive everything You have for me. I ask that as you purge me, that you also cleanse me. Cleanse my heart and my mind. Make me new…again.

With love,

-Yours Truly, Eb